I choose me.

I turn twenty-something in a few hours and I’ve got to say, things do get clearer with age. Take it in any context you wish for some, it’s the end of acne or something, for me… not so much. In the past couple of days, I’ve had the greatest epiphanies in relation to my life. Almost as though someone out there in the universe found me lost and floating about, drowning every now and then, then lifted me to the surface; steered me down the ‘right’ path and said “Go on kid, Godspeed!”  Suddenly I have the right to be happy, wait; I’ll bet you’re thinking   ”WTF? How does one not know they have the right to be happy?” I tell you now I hadn’t quite grasped the concept, hell I’m still adjusting to it. “Why?”, you might ask; Priorities I would answer. The need to be needed is and has been a drug to me for ages, so for the sake of maintaining that, I would place ‘my’ needs, wants, whatever; at the bottom of ‘my’ own food chain.  Ridiculous, pathetic, sad you name it, I know it’s got massive elements of truth in it so I’ll sustain the name calling.

Point is as far as this God given life of mine is concerned, I realise only NOW after ages of self emotional, mental, physical negligence that there is absolutely no shame in giving yourself some love (buzzzzzzzz just playing I didn’t mean it that way...Or did I?).

 People will call you a self-absorbed b*tch or an a**hole (depending on whether you stand or sit to pee), ‘they’ will label you selfish, for putting yourself first. ‘They’ will always have something to say, I guarantee it.

Now I’m definitely am not implying that we should all be jerks, going about pissing off and screwing people over just because we don’t give a f*ck. Oh na na!! That’s not it.
Instead of going all lengthy and explanatory , I’ll ask you this;  how do you help other people to aim higher, be happier, caring and all that Power Puff girl sh*t when you REFUSE to give yourself the benefit of being loved by the very person who knows you best, YOU?

It’s about putting your-self first and loving the ‘You’, you are now and nurturing it into something more epic than before every day, although these things will never happen overnight; it’s worth the wait,  I have to say it is rather thrilling. That person (you know the one you’re working on), can better help other people; after all we all have luggage of some sorts , it’s up to you how and where you pack it.