Complex Complexities

Hello there… just as we get acquainted … I need you to know I AM A COMPLEX BEING.

My thoughts and actions are easier said than done to decipher.

My spontaneity?

Unpredictable naturally just as the very word implies

 It may seem as though I over think, over analyse or over-stand…

That I see the invisible and non-existent

But you must know this by now even before my name

Before the multitude of hallucinogens

 I AM A COMPLEX BEING! 

Neither shall I show the real meaning of a light nod or expression…

The race ran by my ambition based solely of cognition explored with pen as sword

My eyes are not gorged out…with a simple pout it is clear…there’s disapproval in the air a slight whiff somewhere

You scratch your scalp simply because the little hair left has been pulled out…

Comprehension of this creature this being is STILL beyond you even if I behave the most polite

 I must beg that you find it clear…

My name is Stephanie and I AM A COMPLEX BEING.

Lost Inhibitions

Listen to Lost Inhibitions HERE

Losing them inhibitions getting naked with the lights on 

singing one of those cheesy love songs 

tattooing that long name on to parts of myself I’ve always kept on lock down, 

down down.

 Don’t know how to express these things in ways they haven’t been said before, 

so forgive me if...

My story sounds a little like a Disney re-run 

worst yet like the young and restless.

Gosh 

I get young and restful 

body tempted any time that body becomes a close warm nest of good feelings.

 finger tips tingling at the very thought, 

lady parts asking can you hear the thumping of blood rushing to her head,   

swaying into big dark arms falling in and out of  ‘love’; 

misunderstood infatuations. 

‘’How do I breathe without you I want to know’’; 

let’s not find out hide the sharp objects

 lest their clarity seems to capture my attention better than your own.

Lost inhibitions getting naked in the dark 

touching in the city sun-lights.

In the Morning

Listen To it Here: http://www.mixcloud.com/hamustephaniekapfunde/tskc-in-the-morning-audio

I awake in the morning,

In the wee hours

Nothing but birds and flowers applaud me.

A rush of blood to my head as sweet dreams come to an end

Realities of what lies ahead

I fight against the urge of listening to my fears

In replay, fast forward

Backtrack to my purpose

Head bowed I succumb to the emotion of powerlessness

I like it

God is my all in all

Feels good to know

When the wind blows every obstacle my way

All I need is my Faith

I kneel down when I awake

In the morning

God shows me His face

Some say my bed is empty

But His Angel lay beside

Warding off harm sent to me

Still I bow down because though death my taunt me

I have a reason to keep being

Reason to respire

I bow and give thanks

Sing praises as the house awakes

I ululate because My God is good!!

Faithful and true

With Him I can never be blue

Because of Him…

I awake in the morning.